Photo Blog: Running and Mooncake Shopping
30 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
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- Too shy or too painful to speak.
All smile after the run
What! 30 sit up!!
Ah Beng..Stare what stare
Two is not enough, we got 8 pieces
We found the yummy durian mooncake
Pretty..we couldn't resist and bought 8 more.
Running At MacRitchie
20 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
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It feels so good to jump out of bed with the eagerness to go for my morning run in MacRitchie. Different from the everyday wake up that i need to drag myself out of bed to get to school.
Boi! I must really missing running a lot to feel this way. I really do miss it as it is time when i spend it with the Lord to talk to Him and running helped me to appreciate his nature and people. That’s something i love about running with people. It’s like a drug that keeps me going, now without it i get my withdrawal symptoms that life seems in a mess.
The run today we went the other way around, starting from the end point first. The initial few km was tiring as it has been so long since i ran, trying to keep up with Mary and catching my breathe. Running beside her to talk and chat, the pace got better and my heart got the hang of it. I took off to run ahead that gave me time to talk to the Lord, saying how much i miss running with him and telling him about my daily life. The joy of running wasn’t to complete or the company of friends though it played a role in motivating me towards the end but it was the process of being in His presence thanking Him for this body that is fit enough to run for Him.
God if you give me this gift of running, i want to use it for you to reach out to other and today hearing from Mary’s life. It seems that it’s so uncertain but yet you provided her with a job to come back to Singapore. Remind me of my own struggles that I fear for my future can’t it seems uncertain, do not know who to trust and you send me this verse.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths” (Proverbs 3:5,6).
Reflection of the Day
16 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
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PESTA Conference
Sports School Learning Journey
I LOVE THE SPORTS SCHOOL PE PROGRAM!
It’s like heaven for all PE teachers. No NAPFA! Students are motivated to play and learn.
A Fundamental build up of motor skills towards multilateral development of the students in games and finally towards sports specific. They have a wide range of equipment including wave board!
I’m impressed with their progression of skill break down and a vase range of activity to challenge the students in achieving optimal performance in getting the skill. Take home phrase
Deliberate Movement
That’s the challenge of teaching PE, i always assume that students would have learnt it or it will come naturally to them. However, it’s how we deliberate emphasize on it and work towards the relation of using it in sports that will lead to their success. Totally useful for my PE lesson and volleyball training, to even breakdown what is needed in the skills thus leading up to the acquiring of the skill.
Over lunch talk, it stuck that many of the PE teachers are losing their shape in teaching. Thus, how do we become advocate to promote sports and health living if we ourself can’t manage ourself. It was a huge issue that i’m facing that after coming into teaching i lost my discipline to train and maintain a health lifestyle. I’m living a stressful and super unhealthy life.
Hey lady! It’s time to get things right if i want to preach about it, i have to first do it.
We get to caught up behind the table!
Physical Education vs Physical Active
Are our students physically educated to maintain a healthy lifestyle after leaving school?
Are we doing physical activities in school or Physical Education lesson?
Reflecting upon my PE lesson, it has been a mixture of both leaning towards physical activities.
What is my role as a PE teacher? What do i want my students to leave with after their 4/5 years in school?
For my students to continue being active in sports with the equipped skills and knowledge.
How do I measure their sporting activity outside PE lesson? How do I know that they understand how to plan a sports program? Should there a theory for PE rather than just practical. Getting the students to plan a program for themselves as wet weather program but that will not be deliberate. Unless it’s fitted into the curriculum and have a progression of activities for them to grow over the 4-5 years.
Have i forgotten my dream?
13 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
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After talking to Lisa about Mr Wong, i got me thinking about Mary. Oh i miss her so much that i can’t wait to see her again!
Searching My Soul
13 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
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My favourite USA show since Secondary School. Yay!!! Finally found all the seasons, it shall be my motivation each day. 
Life Series: Week 1
13 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
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I’m going to start a life series to note down the changes in my life after facing the extreme of giving up life.
Now is the time to pick it up and embrace the life that God has given me.
Using the greatest commandment that God has given us to guide me in this process.
“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.”
Matthew 22:37
Week 1
Started each day with the word of God in the book of Proverbs. Though it has not been consistent every day, it has been 4 out of 6 that i’ve been reading and reflecting upon his word.
Proverbs 1
“He shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, That brings forth its fruit in its season, Whose lead also shall not wither: and whatever he does shall prosper.”
It tells me to live with His living water, allowing it to flow into my life and let me grow. He has already planned my life and knowing the now is the time to allow Him to water into my life and help me to grow in my relationship with Him. In His timing, He will use me to sow His seeds through the fruits that i’m going to bear. Trust in His plan.
Proverbs 2
“Ask of Me, and I will give you”
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” Serve the Lord with fear, And rejoice with trembling.”
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“Blessed are all those who put their trust in Him.”
Knowing that i’m weak in my body, i have to ask of the Lord for strength to even live by each day and renew my mind so that the negative thoughts do not take hold of me. Amazing! This whole week i was able to have a sound mind even though there are times of anxiety but it wasn’t as often as the past. Serving him in the areas He called me to, brings joy in teaching to see the kids grow. Again in matter of how much i trust in him.
Proverbs 3
” But You, O Lord, are a shield for me. My glory and the one who lifts up my head. I cried to the Lord with my voice, and He heard me from His holy hill. Selah. I lay down and slept, I awoke, for the Lord sustained me. I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people Who have set themselves against me all around.”
God indeed you are my shield again the enemy from penetrating into my thoughts and you gave me peace in sleep so that i can rest in your presence. You heard my cried and embraced me with your love, though i fell and was afraid of people, you pick me up and showed me that i wouldn’t have to be afraid. You allow me to walk through the crowd to see how your creation interact.
Proverbs 4
“And put your trust in the Lord”
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“You have put gladness in my heart. More than in the season that their grain and wine increased. I will both lie down in peace, and sleep. For You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.”
Once again the same message of trusting in the Lord, yesterday and thursday night i slept like a log and it felt that i was paying back for all the lost time of sleep that has beaten the body down so badly over the countless of sleepless night. Today i felt refreshed and clear in mind. Praise you Lord.
A Day of Pampering Myself
The second commandment is
“Love your neighbor as yourself”
I was thinking to myself, how do I love other if I do not learn to love myself. Yes i haven’t been taking good care of myself, from the outside appearance to the inner health.
Week 1 : Personal Hygiene
A short and new hair cut to began with, followed by a rebonding and colouring session in the next two weeks to brighten the outlook. This weeks starts with personal hygiene of taking care of my hair and face which i haven’t been doing. Just bought a couple of hair and facial product to try improve the dryness of my hair and the heavy eye bags.
Let’s see the change over the weeks to come.
Sneak Preview….
NEXT WEEK: Living condition
Capturing the right thoughts
07 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
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Thank God for the ministry people and Felicia for praying that God will lead in my life and send people to support.
I think He sent Evelyn to my life to coach my life, talking through the struggles i have in school and in church.
Relationship with God
Being attending different bible studies hoping to feel more of God’s love and knowing more about him. Meeting up with Pris as my mentor. Am i having too many that there is no followed up and accountability?
Hock sim’s bible study gives a strategy that it’s hard to apply. Eg. Having a goal in mind.
How do i want to people to remember of me? Have a guiding principle to guide your mission and vision. It all big concepts that not knowing ourself, it’s hard to understand it and apply it cause i do not know what is my gifting and going in line with God’s plan. For i can plan and wish something out but it may not be what God wants.
Comparing with Evelyn’s there is a clear practical step to help grow in my walk with God. I told her my struggle in reading the bible and knowing God’s word, i didn’t know how to recognize God’s voice. God spoke through people and things all around me, like Pris teaching me to appreciate the things around.
Probably, i should cut down on my bible study and focus on one that is most relevant to my life. Be in Health. Lord will you guide me, letting me know if it’s the right decision.
Verse of the Day
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
Jeremiah 29:11
Two person mention this in the prayer for me today, Lord what are you teaching me??
During fellowship with Evelyn, you taught me to recognize whether the thoughts are from you or from the devil. Lord, i pray that you will give me a sound mind to discern the thoughts and also the resilience to resist the thoughts after renouncing it.
The motion
06 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
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It seems that i have been just going through the motions of the daily life.
This song “The motion” by Matthew West summarize what i’m feeling now.
This might hurt, it’s not safe
But I know that I’ve gotta make a change
I don’t care if I break,
At least I’ll be feeling something
‘Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life
I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking,
“What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?”
No regrets, not this time
I’m gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let Your love make me whole
I think I’m finally feeling something
‘Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of this life
‘Cause I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking,
“What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?”
take me all the way (take me all the way)
take me all the way (’cause I don’t wanna go through the motions)
take me all the way (I know I’m finally feeling something real)
take me all the way
I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking,
“What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?”
I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking,
“What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?”
take me all the way (take me all the way)
take me all the way (I don’t wanna go, I don’t wanna go)
take me all the way (through the motions)
take me all the way
I don’t wanna go through the motions
Life has seems so meaningless, nothing i do seems to add meaning to life. I’m sick of just getting through each day by just going through the motions. I don’t want it to continue, it will have to stop. Why is this happening??
Reflecting over the pass few days, i’ve been living a life without God.
Each day i pray to God, hoping that He will make the change but without trust and believe, i continue to live each day on my own strength. Bit by bit i can feel that He was going to the extreme of bringing me back. He allowed me to be tested in the mental aspect. Day by day i battle with the negative thoughts of depression and it followed by guilt that i didn’t deserved to be loved. Next was thoughts that tell me that i was losing all my friends. Lastly, together with the work stress that i wasn’t good enough, the negative thoughts became too overwhelm that it seems like the whole world come crashing down. It seems that i was going crazy and losing my sanity, exactly what Mr SaTan wanted me to believe and i fell into his trap.
How silly i was to be running around in his circle all these while, when i could be free.
Yesterday, during the festival of praise i asked God if you are real show yourself to me and set my mind free to worship you. Indeed, at the end i was able to sing of his love. The joy that i felt in my heart to sing and He even brought me back to the first love that i accepted Him into my life.
A christmas evening in the year 2005, in city harvest church when i felt his presence embraced me as in pray to ask him into my life. I wept, feeling the touch in my heart that yes i need a savior for this wreckage life of mine. Going back to this moment of truth to say God i need you back in my life to make this change, to send the fire that burn within. Let my passion for you will burn brighter and brighter each day. Teach me to live a life for you, teach me to be thankful for the things that you have given to me each day.
Looking at how the people who are serving you in the sports ministry, they are joyful and happy serving you. I want that joy that they are having in walking your path, that Lord i haven’t been walking your path or putting your gift for me to the fullest. I also want to serve you like they do, to have the passion for you like they do.What do i need to do??
You see my heart to reach out the volleyball girls, yet, my own pride is killing me. Lord i’m afraid that there’s so many things that i do not know about you and Lord i want to know you more. I want to make you part of my life, to love you, to love myself and to love others.
Show me who you are, teach me to love you so that i can be love by you, in return love myself so that i can love others.
Amen
